I used to have this…..

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…..I hope to have it again one day.

It won’t be the same.

It won’t be Nick.

But I’m coming to be OK with that.

It will be someone new.

I’m looking forward to the new adventure……

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Garth Brooks spoke about his wife in a way usually reserved for … songs. “I can’t believe this really exists. I can’t believe there’s somebody in this world that no matter how many times you get to be with them, all that does is make you want to be with them more,” he said. “For the first time, forever isn’t long enough. That’s crazy, but I’m the lucky guy that found that.”

Garth isn’t the only man to have found that. And Trisha isn’t the only woman. I had that with Nick. And it’s too bad there is no way to let him know this.

Forever isn’t long enough……he’s got that right.

Forecast for Today … Light snow this morning will change to rain showers this afternoon. High 41F. Winds SSE at 10 to 20 mph. Chance of rain 40%.


Sheesh……I’m done with snow. After 5 days in California, I’m ready for SPRING and SUNSHINE!! I was going without a coat and in my sandals!

A tidbit about the new guy. He drives a 2015 F150. *smiles happily*

What we drove up Hwy 1…..*sigh*

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A friend wrote this to me…..

“Reality seems to be getting in the way of what I want done, or don’t want to do, or………..  Maybe just in the way.” ~KM

After this weekend in California, I’m feeling so much more like me again. And I feel I’m ready for my next adventure.

firepit and wine

I’ve met a man I’m really wanting to get to know better. Only time will tell.

Hugs to you all.

Yes, I will update you…when the time is right.

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And then there’s THIS guy….

So…..since y’all seem to want to know how my love life is going…..heh heh heh … no where. *sigh*

However…..I’ve been chatting with a guy on Wisconsin’s east coast. He is very interesting. He makes me smile.

I may be a bit overwhelming for him. … I have 3 children and 10 Grandchildren.  He has 1 son and 1 grandson.  LOL…. He was like……….*drops jaw*…………Hey, love me, love my kids and grandkids.

But, for having never met, talking on the phone twice, and only texting for a week…..we’ve hit it off fairly well.

And he has the bluest eyes. Wow…I could drown in them.

On a different note…………………

This long weekend, I’m heading to California. March 20th is my first wedding anniversary. My ‘maid of honor’ and my ‘best (wo)man’ are going to celebrate with me. I wish it would be the 4 of us. But Nick will be there in spirit.

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We’ll be in a house right on the Pacific Ocean. I’ll be dipping my toes in, drinking lots of Wine, and I’m sure there will be some sadness, joy, lots of laughter and happiness. I love these two more than life. And I can’t be happier that the 3 of us have this in common above and beyond being sister-cousins. I have an amazing family I’m very proud to be a part of.

If I had my life to do over again

Not long before our wedding, Nick and I were in a store and ran across this sign. He looked at me. I looked at him. We both started leaking. And just held each other. Because we knew that the end was coming. I put this up almost immediately so we could both see it every day and know…..how much love we had for each other.

He told the story of going to Eitzen on a booze cruise once. And feeling the NEED to stop along the highway because he felt he had to meet someone nearby. This was 10-12 years before we even met.

The first time I took him to Portland, he gasped and said, this is where I felt that. I looked across the field and pointed to the house I grew up in. We just looked at each other.

Was it fate?

The pink hat says bride on it. The black hat way right says groom. The other two hats are both New Zealand hats and are the ones he wore almost exclusively till he died. I can pick them up and smell him on those hats. It still brings tears of pain and heartache…..one day I will smile. I should put these in zip locks to preserve that scent.

Today I leave you with this: ~ A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and en-kindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy. ~ George Jean Nathan 

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Well…..That was …………

………..nice! Very nice! I really enjoyed myself last night.

No talk of Nick. No pressure for anything. Just getting to know someone new.

He’s not a car person. I am. He’s into hunting. I’m not.

But we had a very nice dinner, spent 2 hours chatting.

its-better-to-look-back  And that’s what I’m doing.

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Well…again tonight….

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I have another date tonight. The guy actually just lives down the highway from me. How bizarre is THAT??? He just text me to let me know he’s in town buying a broom. *snortz* Yes, that guy. I told him I’d be picking up all the road kill on the way home. Ya, he can make me laugh. But we’ll see. The first one didn’t work out. No spark. We had a good time talking but that was it. I don’t think this one tonight will either. But I’m getting out of the house, meeting new people. That’s the main thing for me right now. Daughter smiles and goes “OH! Really mom!?” when I told her I’ll be late tonight. “LOVE YOUR SHIRT!” she hollers as I’m leaving!! *chuckles* I’m gonna MISS that girl!!!

LOVING MY NEW CAR!!! She drove into work like a DREAM!! I love how much wider she is and the doors are thicker. Why that makes me feel safer, I have no idea. And she is the purdiest color ever.

My friend Susan came from Racine this weekend. We had a BLAST!!! She is something wonderful! We’ve been talking online for I don’t even know HOW many years. We went to Beedles for supper. I gave that place another chance and this time I was NOT disappointed in the food. It was very good. I’ll be going there again. We stopped at the grocery store and grabbed some Chardonnay and some Riesling, went home and broke out the wine glasses. We talked and talked…it was so nice.

Sunday we went to visit Nick. She wanted to see where he was. I just wish that dang wind had not been so crisP! Sheesh. Susan was quite impressed with the peaceful place Nick had picked. I did ok for the first time ever while standing there. Could be because I wasn’t alone…..? She said he was standing there with us. We got on like a house afire and I was sad to see her leave. I’ll be heading her way soon!!

There are other developments in my life but those will wait till it’s a concrete thing.


OK, maybe that’s an exaggeration but it sure feels like after the snow last night!!

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So you all are waiting for….

the news……..Of what I bought? or ‘the date’……………*smiles*

First ….. what I bought.

Back in June 2016, I bought a Ford Escape. Wanted one forever. I bought it because the Focus had sport suspension and every bump would make Nick groan in pain. As much as I loved that little 5 speed, Nick’s comfort was more important. The Escape was taller so easier for him to get in and out of, and the ride was somewhat smoother. And I had wanted one forever, did I mention that?


Well, my little Escape, darling as she was, had a transmission….glitch, we’ll call it. And I was worried about it.

I love my Dan. I have bought my last few cars from him and he treats me right. So when he sent me a photo of this:

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……..and then I bought it. I got a good deal more on my trade in than I was expecting so it was too good to pass up. I pick it up tonight. And I can hardly wait. I’m so excited, I have tears of joy running down my leg!!

My friend Susan is coming up tomorrow afternoon and it’s gonna be fun. Drinking, eating, mac and cheese fest…yup!!

My taxes will hopefully be dropped off today to get figured and that will be done before I leave for California.

The weather has turned back into winter so the wood stove will get started up again tonight. It’s cold today.

(Get ON with the date details will ya?? I know….I heard that!!)

So, 4pm rolls around yesterday and I’m starting to get butterflies thinking, OK, I am just going to go home. But I’ve committed to supper at the very least. 4:30pm I get a text “I’m here” I’m thinking ‘Oh God.’ So I let him know I was on my way. The place we met is like 8 minutes from my work. So not a lot of time to figure out ways to back out.

I get there, he’s at the bar, on the phone, waves me over to where he is and we start talking. And talking. And talking. We talked for over 2 hours. We had supper. We talked some more. He walked me to my car, hugged me, gave me a kiss and said drive safe. I went home, he went home, then we text randomly for a couple more hours.

I really enjoyed my evening with him. He asked after supper if I was nervous. I said I was nervous before I even got there and was thinking on how I could sit in my car in the parking lot for 20 more minutes before going in! He laughed at me. *sigh*

If he invites me out, I’ll go again.

Now…..I have another date Monday night. With someone else. But he’s so into hunting and fishing that I don’t know how that will go.

Then I may just quit. heh heh heh I signed up for this dating site for one month. And I have had enough stress for this month.







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