One year ago today….

Nick started Chemo/Radiation.

This is from my archives from today one year ago:

Our Thanksgiving was pretty durn good with 20 people at our table this year. Both sides of our family were there to celebrate all that WE have to be thankful for this year.

At one point, I looked around the table and saw both babies sitting next to each other just having a ball, their mommies next to them….His brothers, my parents, my son, my daughter, our grand-babies…..7 of the 8…………it got a bit overwhelming and I just left the table and went to the bathroom for a bit….My eyes leaked.

The Chemo pills (They were ‘missing’….) he was to start taking WERE at the pharmacy. They just forgot to call and TELL us they were there. So I get to pick them up tonite before I head home.

Today was his first bout of Radiation. He forgot to take his anti-nausea pills with him. They said ‘you have 30 minutes to get home before you feel it.’ I’m waiting to hear if anything happened or not. I’m thinking it’s been over an hour….he’s not feeling good.

(phone rings)

Well speak of the devil. He took the pills that dissolve under his tongue and he is doing OK. He’ll bring them with and we’ll try supper tonite! Fingers crossed and all that.

I hope you all had a day to celebrate what we do have to be thankful for…

A year ago. He was doing MUCH better than today. Treatment is such a crap shoot. Our neighbor had bladder cancer and no chemo/radiation. He’s back to “Normal”. The cancer was IN his bladder but not attached to it but they removed the whole bladder anyway, and he now has a bag. But is doing FINE. Back to his old self.

Ultrasound for today is cancelled. They want to go right to an MRI……again. So again we wait as that needs insurance approval…..

My life will never be mine again. I can see that now.