Urgent care…again…..

Wednesday Feb 17, Nick went in for Chemo and a sore side. They ended up putting this new stent and tube out of his liver.

The tube comes out his side between the bottom two ribs. It’s been sore….it’s also been seeping.

Friday night, I put this hunk of gauze on it, taped it up and off we went to the fish fry. We left early since Nick didn’t feel very well. We went home, cuddled on the couch and Mr. & Mrs. Excitement went to bed by like 9:30pm.

Saturday morning, I took one look at that hunk of gauze and called the nurse hot line. It was full of yellow liquid. Everyone knows bile, the yellow fluid your liver produces to help digest your food. This is what it looked like. Every time he breathed, a few drops would leak out.

So off to Urgent Care we went. They cleaned him up, took samples, did a CT Scan and discovered it’s an infection. Which, on one hand isn’t good, but on the other hand, 2 Rx’s and we were on our way HOME instead of on our way to 3 more days in the hospital.

I’m changing bandages every morning and night. And the stream of yellow seems to be slowing down. We didn’t do much this weekend……

And I can tell.

I look at my legs and go UGH….

blink of an eye

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Some good? news perhaps?

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Nick had his first Chemo in weeks yesterday. He spent from 1:30pm til 5pm “with his bags.” No more pump to come home with him for 46 hours. His ‘recipe’ has been tweaked. Let’s hope, pray, and sacrifice hamsters, gerbils, and some ex husbands, that this works.

He’s feeling pretty good this morning…..so…….

Remember a few weeks ago when I let you all know that it had moved to his lungs? We were told there were multiple spots.

There is one. About a millimeter big in his lower left lung. Close to the area where the tumor was in his stomach. It’s not ‘multiple spots in both lungs’ as we were first told.

One little tiny spot.

But it’s there.

But it’s one tiny spot…in one lung……not multiples in both.

We have so many people coming to stay for a few days here and there the whole month of March. Now another friend is coming over from across the pond. She’s having a time figuring out how to get from Chicago to here via Train or Bus. And now she’s checking Minneapolis…..

My house will be SO clean all month!!! Maybe into April!!

People have been overwhelmingly kind and helpful and generous and wow….I’m just bowled over. Nick can barely get out how grateful he is for our friends and family.

And he’s finding out just how wide my network of friends is.

I cannot begin to thank everyone enough…..I have no idea how in this magnitude.

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What? Me? Panic?


I’m thinkin’ I’ll need some tequila in my little brown bag…….

As I was driving home last night, I started crying. Then I couldn’t breathe….

Let me tell ya, when you are driving and you can’t breathe? you shouldn’t be driving…..

I have been trying to get Nick to ‘breathe’ during his pain before the Oxy’s kick in. Sometimes he waits 5 minutes too long and it takes 15 for them to kick in. So he pays for it when he does not take them every 4 hours on the dot.

So I’ve been doing the breathing exercises lately, which helped last night driving home. I really had to concentrate to breathe and not hyperventilate.

And I’m sure I’m gonna need those exercises again.

But I think I’d prefer the brown bag remedy.



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They have given him…..

……..This is a term we keep hearing right now.

They ‘gave’ him 10-12 months last December.

Last Thursdays they ‘gave’ him a couple months.

My first thought? How DARE they only ‘give’ him a couple months.

Give him a couple YEARS yet. We have grandchildren to spoil!! Lennox will NOT understand “Papa’s not here honey. Papa’s not here.”

And neither will the rest…..

and neither do I anymore…..


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