And yet…..


I’m not sure I like heading where I have no choice.

I can only see it being ‘more important’ because it will make me a stronger person. I will lose Nick. Sooner than later. I am not ready for that. I’ll never be ready for that.

I say that now…but I know watching him suffer will take its toll on me. And I’ll pray for a peaceful and dignified end for him, no matter the pain it costs me.


About Boo

Grandmother to 11....or is it 12 now? Getting back into life after losing the love of my life to cancer. Read my struggles with daily life........or don't. But I hope it helps ONE person get thru the same thing I went thru......
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10 Responses to And yet…..

  1. Thomas says:

    God is in control, for what reason we don’t know, and maybe the winshield will show us. But it is a very bumpy ride along the way.

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  2. fredrieka says:

    What you express here is so very true for all caregivers. We want our love ones to stay with us yet we do not want them to suffer.

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  3. I agree with fredrieka, not much I can add that hasn’t been said.

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  4. joliesattic says:

    So true, but none of us knows the limit of our strength until it’s been met and God allows only what He knows we are capable of handling.

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