Saturday night…..(added)

…..and the moon is out….I’m gonna head on over to the Twist and Shout….Well, actually, I headed north and found some Seagram’s Margarita ….. something or other….*hic* I had a prescription for it….the bartender said “it’s a receipt lady!”…..*waves hand* … whatever….

I took off Saturday afternoon. Filled up the cat’s bowl, opened the lid on the toilet, dropped Jegs at my friend T & L’s house and disappeared. Just needed to get away.

Several reasons…..I felt betrayed by a friend that I care about ; it hurts. I needed to get away. I wanted to be away from here. I needed some time to NOT be a caretaker with no one to take care of. I needed someone to treat me like they KNEW I am/was Nick’s wife, a human, a person, and not a hired nurse or like I was non existent. I need to start finding ‘Boo’ again. I need to know who I am.

So I went to stay overnight with a friend. I have my own room at their house. It’s nice. I can go stay there any time I want. And I will be doing this again …. soon. J and I have been friends for over 30 years. We can talk ………….. and talk………….and talk……….and enjoy each others company. It was good to be there.

We went for supper, did a little bar hopping. After the 2nd drink with supper, I handed J the keys and said “You are driving.” *hic*…………I danced on the windshield to the song ‘Bop’ as we were driving down the road and sang to my hearts content. J’s just laughing at me. I felt good.

It was good to let loose. And it was strange to know I didn’t have anyone to answer to for my behavior but myself.  I didn’t have to worry about Nick at home waiting for me. I didn’t have to worry about him wondering where I was, if I was safe. I am safe with J.

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Sunday, I went to visit my Bill.

Bill and Boo before Canada

I didn’t get a new selfie with him, altho I thought of it…..and forgot it. Dang it.

Bill turns 95 today. He’s still doing quite well. He is such a great guy…..love him to bits and back. His brother Jack came to pick him up for his birthday party while I was there…(that was the plan and we timed it to work that way)….Then I could see Jack too.

I will dread the day I lose Bill. He’s been an awesome person in my life and I’m very proud to know him.

Y’all have a NICE day!

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and on a foot note

And I feel no regrets for what I did, the drinking, the flirting, the being me. It’s amazing!

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About Boo

Grandmother to 10....no 11....or is it 12 now? Getting back into life after losing the love of my life to cancer. Read my struggles with daily life........or don't. But I hope it helps ONE person get thru the same thing I went thru......
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11 Responses to Saturday night…..(added)

  1. Ronda says:

    So glad to see you had a nice weekend for YOU!! ❤

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  2. I’m glad you took a little ‘Me” time, we all need that, especially with all you have had to go through so recently! Make that “me” time a habit! 🙂

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  3. A Perfectmindstorm says:

    What Skipper said 🙂

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  4. fredrieka says:

    awesome you got out and had some fun!

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  5. littlewhip says:

    These short bursts of joy are what get us through the dark nights of mourning. Allow yourself to have fun, Sue. As often as possible!

    Liked by 1 person

  6. Sharon Wells says:

    After all the gloom and doom, having fun is what you need.

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