Saturday night…..(added)

…..and the moon is out….I’m gonna head on over to the Twist and Shout….Well, actually, I headed north and found some Seagram’s Margarita ….. something or other….*hic* I had a prescription for it….the bartender said “it’s a receipt lady!”…..*waves hand* … whatever….

I took off Saturday afternoon. Filled up the cat’s bowl, opened the lid on the toilet, dropped Jegs at my friend T & L’s house and disappeared. Just needed to get away.

Several reasons…..I felt betrayed by a friend that I care about ; it hurts. I needed to get away. I wanted to be away from here. I needed some time to NOT be a caretaker with no one to take care of. I needed someone to treat me like they KNEW I am/was Nick’s wife, a human, a person, and not a hired nurse or like I was non existent. I need to start finding ‘Boo’ again. I need to know who I am.

So I went to stay overnight with a friend. I have my own room at their house. It’s nice. I can go stay there any time I want. And I will be doing this again …. soon. J and I have been friends for over 30 years. We can talk ………….. and talk………….and talk……….and enjoy each others company. It was good to be there.

We went for supper, did a little bar hopping. After the 2nd drink with supper, I handed J the keys and said “You are driving.” *hic*…………I danced on the windshield to the song ‘Bop’ as we were driving down the road and sang to my hearts content. J’s just laughing at me. I felt good.

It was good to let loose. And it was strange to know I didn’t have anyone to answer to for my behavior but myself.  I didn’t have to worry about Nick at home waiting for me. I didn’t have to worry about him wondering where I was, if I was safe. I am safe with J.

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Sunday, I went to visit my Bill.

I didn’t get a new selfie with him, altho I thought of it…..and forgot it. Dang it.

Bill turns 95 today. He’s still doing quite well. He is such a great guy…..love him to bits and back. His brother Jack came to pick him up for his birthday party while I was there…(that was the plan and we timed it to work that way)….Then I could see Jack too.

I will dread the day I lose Bill. He’s been an awesome person in my life and I’m very proud to know him.

Y’all have a NICE day!

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and on a foot note

And I feel no regrets for what I did, the drinking, the flirting, the being me. It’s amazing!