It’s hard to find a new dream with an old one in your eyes.
I heard this line in a song on Sunday.
And I understand it.
I had a dream.
It died. There is no going back to that one.
I had another dream.
It, too, has died. But in a different way. I don’t know if it will ever be a possibility no matter how much I may want it. He has to also. And he doesn’t. He used to. But not right now. This makes me very sad. I do know it’s not me. But it doesn’t stop my heart from hurting. All over again.
Now there is a new possibility. He says he will never expect me to stop loving Nick. He says he will never expect me to let Nick’s memory die.
I need to explore this avenue. Because he knows how devastated I am from losing the love of my life.
He is patient, kind, and he can make me laugh. Even tho he’s younger than I am.
And he can dance. *smiles*
(Yes, I do….see below)