I slept pretty good last night. I hit the pillow and was in the same place when I woke up. That doesn’t happen very often….


Saturday was pretty rough. A friends fiance passed away kind of unexpectedly. She was doing treatment for breast cancer and it sounded like she was doing ok. But he came home last Wednesday after work and found her on the bathroom floor.

I’m 11 weeks into this journey now. Dave is just starting. But man, did it bring back EVERYTHING from sleeping on the couch to not eating to not remembering much of anything but ‘he’s gone’. Just wanting to scream NO!

So, at the wedding dance, I once again drank. A lot. A combination of Mike’s/Smirnoff/Raspberry Brandy shots.


I really need to stop doing that.

The shots. Not the Mike’s. heh heh heh

Danced like crazy. Did my bestest to forget. Enjoyed myself.

And paid for it Sunday morning.


Time to slow back down.




About Boo

Grandmother to 11....or is it 12 now? Getting back into life after losing the love of my life to cancer. Read my struggles with daily life........or don't. But I hope it helps ONE person get thru the same thing I went thru......
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5 Responses to Actually…..

  1. A Perfectmindstorm says:

    When you get my age you will slow down haha 🙂 At least you danced and had a good time, that’s something 🙂

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  2. The pain will continue to come and go hard but you know that too. Dancing was good.

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  3. fredrieka says:

    Breathe! Inhale the good around you.

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