Well…I’m back ~ dammit…


What do you see above?

A weed? or a wish?

I see a wish.

I wish I could figure out this grief thing. One minute I’m just HIGH on life and laughing and enjoying being myself.

The next I can be in the depths of despair. Like the flip of a switch.

Lennox wanted to watch Papa videos this weekend while he was at my house. While I LOVE seeing Nick alive and well again, Reality hits just as soon as the video stops. He sat there staring at Nonna, tears rolling down my cheeks.

“I miss Papa” he says.

I miss Papa too honey…………more than anyone knows or understands.

I need my alone time more than I thought.

It’s time for a weekend in the cities with Jon and Teresa and Jerry and possibly…..*my sister* JOAN??


About Boo

Grandmother to 10....no 11....or is it 12 now? Getting back into life after losing the love of my life to cancer. Read my struggles with daily life........or don't. But I hope it helps ONE person get thru the same thing I went thru......
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3 Responses to Well…I’m back ~ dammit…

  1. Val Ewing says:

    It isn’t easy especially now with the holidays coming. You will keep having this happen I think because he was such the love of your life.

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