….I actually slept pretty well once I got to sleep…..at about 1am…..I think I’m just going to have to resign myself to being unable to get to sleep before midnight until I can throw my bedroom windows wide open and hear the outside. There is nothing like the sound of nature to lull you to sleep.
All of a sudden it seems like the weeks are flying by. It’s the usual weekend Nick and I would go to Tom’s house and celebrate his birthday with him. Sammy’s Pizza…..wow….GOOD stuff. Eat that and Pizza Hut pizza will make you gag…..
I’m not wanting to go to work in the mornings. I’m just wanting to snuggle down in my awesome bed in my awesome bedroom.
This is true……but usually they have to twist them first to make you look like an ass. That’s ok. I’ll just keep pulling into myself more and more because obviously I cannot trust those few I talk with. Things said in confidence stay in confidence and to have my words twisted and maimed then spewed? ……….. no more.
What I want to do with my life, who I want to see, who I want to be with is MY choice. And no one else. I don’t know why I feel I need to defend what I do. It is my life, my decisions, my mistakes, my consequences. I don’t need someone else spreading untrue things about me. It’s just ONE more thing to deal with in a world that has been turned upside down and hasn’t righted itself yet. My world.
So once again, I distance myself to protect myself. I pull back into myself. This does me more harm than good in being able to process things, but it keeps me safe in having one less thing on my plate.
Those that think they are helping………..
~Today I leave you to think on the following: Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that gives value to survival. ~C.S. Lewis