Since my trip to California, I feel like I’m really coming back to the land of the living. My thought process is getting better. I’m remembering more every day things. I am doing OK.
Then I get slammed with Heather’s death. I will be OK tho. Sometimes I think it’s just gonna roll off my back, then I think of her sister Heidi and I lose it for a bit. But I am bouncing back faster.
I decided I am not going to date anyone who knew Nick. I just want to put that part of my life in the past to pull out when I want to or need to, and not be reminded all the time. I want to think of Nick when I want to, when I am prepared to, when I can deal with it.
I have a new man in my life that makes me smile and laugh.
He lost his wife to cancer. So he knows how I feel, I know how he feels.
He didn’t know Nick.