This weekend…..

…I will be doing some remembering………………..

nick wed morning

Rest in peace my love. I miss you so much I still hurt. Tomorrow morning I go to where you proposed to me. Where you got down on one knee like a gentleman. I will walk where we walked, go out to our little peninsula and remember that day (smiles wickedly) laying with you, soaking in the sun. Neither one of us could think about it and not smile. I may even go over and see if that little bar still has those awesome steaks. Lake Lee…where Bear learned he LOVED water, and sleep where we slept. I love you now, I love you always. I miss you now, I miss you always.

 

Brian-Birtic

Rest in peace my dear friend. I miss you. I would really love to go to you and talk to you. But you must be resting on the mantle. I never told you, dear friend, that I love you. And thank you for being part of my dash.  Your son said you were a great man. I have to agree with him. I still cannot wrap my head around you being gone. Like my Nick, you were vibrant and full of life. Ready to laugh and always a smile on that handsome face.

 

gramma lola

Gramma … You went Home in 1991 and I miss you today like it was yesterday.  You were my life, my reason for being. I loved you more than anyone.  My memories of the things we did are still fresh in my mind. I have worked to be like you. I think I may have done it. My grandchildren love me. I hope I have made you proud.

Julie … The age of 28 is far too young for ANYONE to leave this world. Your two sons have grown to be stellar young men. You must be quite proud of them. I used to go to your grave and talk to you for hours. It took me almost 20 years to be able to speak about you without losing it. I will NEVER forget the screams in my head as they closed your casket.  I was terrified the same thing would happen when they closed Nick’s. It did. Just not as loud as yours.

Ricky … The explosion in Turret 2 on the USS Iowa in 1989 took you from us. You were a ‘take him home to Momma’ kind of young man and everyone was so proud of you. I remember us partying together just 3 weeks before you died. You were such fun. I miss that smile.

Bear alone.jpg

Bear … My beloved Marshmallow. My 135lb Rotten Lab (with a little German thrown in for longer legs) I still mourn for you. You were that awesome. I still go visit your grave, too. You made Nick and I so happy being such an awesome personality, companion and friend. Jegs will be the same way for me. Losing him will be as bad as losing you.

There are so many more. My Grandma Doris, T’s parents, my aunts and uncles, I was too young to remember my grandfathers but having Nick be such a Papa to Lennox, I know what I lost, 5 classmates now.  And at times, it overwhelms me. I find myself thinking of them and wanting to talk. Tell them things I didn’t while they were alive.

Take that to heart and TELL those that are important to you……….tell them. Whatever it is you need to say.

Regret can be difficult to live with.

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3 Responses to This weekend…..

  1. A Perfectmindstorm says:

    Yesterday would have been my Dad’s 95th birthday, but it was also the 28th anniversary of his passing . I did a little remembering myself yesterday. It’s never ever easy to lose our loved ones.

    Hugsss ♥♥

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  2. Ronda says:

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