So apparently I have a date….

…………….ugh.

The guy makes me laugh, he’s local, he’s funny, and he knows exactly where I live.

wait……………………………..what????

Apparently he lived in my area 40 years ago. He lives just north of where I work. Then he said I live in On……a, it’s just a little south of (name of town I live by). I said “well imagine that!! I too, live south of (name of town I live by)” and he came back with “Fr…………le?” (name of little gathering of houses 1/2 mile from my house)….um….

Wait………………………….WHAT???

He asked if he could take me to Mike’s (local bar I NEVER go to) for supper. Then he laughed and suggest the local supper club. Well, we are getting warmer! He even knows where Charlie’s is. OK. I might be safe….?

Almost scary.

I know…y’all think I’m strange. Especially after yesterdays post of missing Nick so much to go to this one about a date? Ya, I’m nuts that way. And my emotions and thoughts seem to go all over. I think I’m getting better at not feeling like I’m cheating on Nick by going out with someone. Then there are days when I’m almost terrified to leave the house.

You have to remember, we were together for 23 years. That is NOT easy to forget/dismiss/get over/forget about. But, I have to move on with my life. I tell myself that. Others tell me that. I’m trying to do that.

IS IT WORKING?????? I don’t know. I just know I am talking to men who did not know Nick. And I feel pretty apprehensive about it. Like I’m waiting for Nick to get mad….ya, get out of my head. It’s frightening in there.

But I tell ya peeps, it is SCARY. I spent several hours having a great conversation with RS. Laughing and flirting and wondering if I will feel anything towards this guy…..to crying my eyes out and apologizing to Nick on the drive home.

Toldjaso!

I haven’t dated since I was 19. And even then I had met my 1st husband before he and I ever started dating. I was good friends with Nick before he and I ever got together. And that is the extent of it. I even knew a couple guys I dated in high school before we dated. I have never gone on a ‘cold call’ kind of date.

And to me? It’s terrifying. So we may do a little lunch. That gives me 30 minutes to deal with “terrified” and hopefully go to “not so scared”.

OMG I just invited him to the football game!! WTF??

I have to go take my temperature.