This was…..

….the FIRST Easter card I received after connecting to the World Wide Web and setting up email.

I thought “I”m gonna LIKE this!!” (There is another one like this for Halloween….their little butts are painted up like Jack-O-Lanterns….makes me giggle every time!)

Yesterday was NUTS! ….and between yesterday and today, I put in 2 orders totaling almost $60K. Glad I don’t have to pay for it!!

Last night, our ‘Bittersweet Farewell Tour’ kept rolling through my mind. Especially the Bed and Breakfast we stayed at. It didn’t last too long. I didn’t lose it.

I am getting better.

Tonight is a fish fry (and I’m not even Kathlick!)The fish here is beyond awesome…I love it. I can’t wait to eat it. I had a bland cuppa soup for lunch so I can have fish tonight.

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!

 

Too busy today!

Enjoy this instead!!!

Two days of…..

….(squints to read bottle) AMOX-CLAV 875mg tablets and my infection is subsiding. I think. I just know I am not in as MUCH pain anymore. Altho every now and then it will FLARE up and remind me it’s hanging on…..dammit.

I think this looks like more fun and better medicine…….because I think after 3 or 4 doses, I won’t care how I feel.

Tonight I am going to Passion of the Christ again with my friend Barb. I have the movie at home but there is just something about seeing this on the big screen that…..speaks to ya.

I want to go see Apostle Paul next week. The sequel to Passion of the Christ.

I wish my wine guy would come back in.

I wish my life didn’t suck.

New washer and dryer installed today and I don’t even get to use it for the first load. *sigh*

 

Something fun!!!

I think I need to stalk that guy that came in here asking me to go for wine. Problem is? I don’t have a name or for sure where he lives. ugh

I need to go find some fun. Stalking is fun isn’t it? heh heh heh

So I have been having some trouble with a molar. Lost a filling and it took 6 weeks to get into my dentist. So it is infected.

Yes, I love my dentist. That is why I waited 6 weeks to see him.

He gave me a form of Augmentin for the infection and next week they pull it. Nothing left of that back tooth. Ugh. NOT looking forward to it except maybe  NO MORE MOUTH PAIN??

I got the soft teeth in the family. Thanks ‘rents!

I am looking forward to having my house back to myself and put it the way I want it to be. All three bedrooms upstairs need painting and staging. I’m taking a year off from my beloved exchange students. I need some time for me.

Alone.

In MY house.

I love my house.

Palm Sunday

Two years ago on Palm Sunday.

I kept thinking about that all day yesterday.

And just felt calm.

I miss you, love of my life….RIP.

Yesterday was 20 months

……….can you believe it’s been that long?

Still feels like yesterday.

Keeping up the pace…

You can accompany someone on a journey today that is not long, but proves ultimately to have a far-reaching impact.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM That’s an interesting Horrorscope….

I’m looking back over this blog and thinking……..what else do I have to get off my chest? What else do I need to get out of my head and down in a safe place…?

I started this blog to keep track of things going on with Nick. Because when you keep too much stuff in your head, it becomes like a train track in your brain, things going ’round and ’round…with this fear you will *gasp* FORGET something you need to remember….and it can start to make you crazy. I had HOPED it would not have to cover his death. At least not that fast. I always knew in the back of my mind he wouldn’t get better. The cancer was in a bad place. But I didn’t think we would only have 21 months. Damn.

It has turned into my thoughts on my recovery. My working through the death of the man who was the love of my life. And my fears of finding love again. It scares me to realize I find men lacking. Lacking in that something that made me just giddy like when I was with Nick. Will I ever find that again? Nick made me have butterflies. He made me mad as hell. He made me feel happy. He made me feel safe. He made me upset and frustrated. He made me smile and he made me laugh.

But most of all? He made me feel loved.

I miss that.

And I hope to find it again.