My lilies are blooming right now. I’m seemingly better this year than last. I haven’t cried for a while till last night. I miss him still. Always will.
I think this was the day I met with the pastor about the service. Everything is such a blurrrrrr….
Then I get to work today and realize I’m wearing the same top I wore to the funeral a year ago today (Wednesday) but the date was July 27th.
I read back through some emails to remind me what I did. I guess I wasn’t on the computer.
I do remember sitting on the futon a lot, looking out that window. Just staring….at nothing but my lawn. For hours.
Like my life would be for months. Nothing. Nothing but existing. Not living.
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These lilies are blooming right now and smell AMAZING. The plant is like 6′ tall and has SO many blooms on it again. I sat out on my front platform just smelling it last night.
It was a beautiful, warm, calm night with just a slight breeze. It…
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the lily is beautiful! 🙂 and the writing about death…all is well.
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I can write about it now without losing it. I haven’t lost it in a while. Time will tell for tomorrow night.
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Did you wrestle up a date for tomorrow night? I probably gotta work…shit…
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No. I have that dance on Sat night. Hoping that guy comes into work. I will take him up on the bottle of wine.
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that sounds like a plan! 🙂
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Wish I had his name and phone #……….LOL!
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well somebody at work has to know who he is and maybe put a little birdie word out?
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They THINK his name is Jeff. If he doesn’t come in, he doesn’t. It’s ok.
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so are you at work right now in the office? …
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Yup. all day every day
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me 2 however I’ve only logged in 5 hours of work and I can’t imagine sitting here 3 more after being on at 7:10 aM
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There are days……………….
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