Think back to early June….

…and remember….that truck load of wood?  And my broken Sternum? ……


My 5year old g’son’s birthday party was Saturday at the bowling alley. It was great fun watching 2 5 yr olds bowl. They had a GREAT time. We had brownies (requested in lieu of a cake) and root beer (ugh…I brought wine in my insulated cup…shhhhhh don’t judge) and it was fun with my folks and my kids and some of my g’kids.

My oldest grandson is 18 1/2, 6′ tall, 225 plus pounds. He gave me a hug when he saw me. A really big hug. Lifted me off the ground hug.

jules and cullan at football

You know where this is going right?


I was unable to breathe for almost 10 minutes. Lightheaded. HURT.

On the upside I CAN cough and I CAN sneeze. So that’s a plus.

The photo is Sunday morning. I took Lennox and his mommy out for breakfast. He got his usual Mickey Mouse Pancake with whipped cream and chocolate chips. . . . and proceeded to lick the whipped cream off the pancake.

lennox at 5 licking his pancake.jpeg

*sigh* what a child. LOVE him to bits and back.

Notice the two figures protecting his chocolate milk?


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I just need to say something here….

…..I GET that y’all don’t like what Brian is doing.

But I do know the situation. And believe it or not, how many men today do follow through on their word?

Not many.

I feel he has and that is an honorable thing. What he really did wrong was get involved with me before FINISHING that situation, or telling me about it BEFORE we got involved. I would have not gone out with him and he knows this.

The question really is……has he honored his word long enough? Or is he now enabling?

I personally think he needs to let go. They will either continue to stand. Or fail and fall. But that is THEIR choice. Not his. This person is old enough to pay the consequences.

often it is the most deserving people who cannot help loving those who destroy them

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First blog of the new year……

Yesterday afternoon, after spending a wonderful NYE and NY day with Brian, I walked away. He cannot give me an answer I can live with about the situation in Chicago. I won’t play second fiddle to that. He came home Sunday evening bruised and cut up. He should have had stitches. Apparently her ex came calling. And beat the crap out of him. Charges have been filed and will be followed through with…….but I don’t want to nor do I need to deal with that.

So until he figures out if he wants that kind of drama…….? Or the fun and good times he has with me……….? I’m gone. If he finally does figure it out? and I’m available………? We’ll see.

His family wants him out of there. I’d like to see him out of there. But it’s his choice.

I cried all the way home from his place. I do have such fun with him. I have met two of his brothers and they are wonderful people. But that’s not enough for me to stay. Even though he makes me feel special………… Just not special enough.
New Years Resolution
Hope your new year is better than ever…..happy new year hat.jpg


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