Been struggling this week….

I recently reconnected with two of Nick’s and my friends. They didn’t know about him. So the whole story got told. Again. Yesterday I sent them both ‘The Photo’

Nick and Sue benefit
I hope they look at it and smile. And see, like everyone else does, the love we had.

Nicks headstone
I miss these hands. They knew me.Nicks hands
June is when he decided to stop the poison they call chemo. You know that crap, the stuff that causes cancer.

We were on our “Bittersweet Farewell Tour” this week. We both knew it was the last time we’d get to spend any quality time together before it was too late.

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He did a lot of thinking, reflecting, and praying. We prayed a lot those 10 days. He prayed for a miracle. I prayed for …………I don’t know what. I know part was a peace filled, dignified, and easy end for him. After all the suffering he did…………….he deserved that.

I miss him so.

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It’s a melancholy day….

…………….so I look for something in my archives that says sad.

And this comes up.


How does one stay sad NOW?????


Gary’s daughter went into labor about 5:30pm last night.

At 6:40am, Selah Daye was born weighing in at  7lbs 12oz. I can’t wait to meet her next week. And her Mommy. And her Daddy…..Gary is beside himself. It will be a fun trip.

Son sold his house. Now they are doing a mad scramble to put offers in on two other homes hoping to get one done before the closing on THEIR house Aug 2nd. I’m going over there tonight to see the BIG house they are looking at. Almost 4,000 square feet but needs work.

Fingers crossed!!!

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My G’son…..he’s too cool….

Tuesday evening, Lennox came RUNNING into the house…

“MOMMY!!! NONNA!! Come look at this sky!! It’s so PRETTY!!!!”

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So I did.

Now, when you looked at this sunset, it was all pink. The camera pulled up the yellow. It was beautiful either way but he was like “Where did that yellow come from??”

He sighed.

“It’s ok. It’s still pretty.”

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One Ringy Dingy….

… I’m looking at this photo when I answer the phone.

At work.


Me: RE

Him: Just wondering if you carry any kind of clear plastic tubing.

Me: Yes, Please hold while I get you one of the drunks……………….. I mean aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahhah One of the GUYS!

(Then I quickly hit the transfer button……………….)

It’s gonna be one of those days…..

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