Dear Nick….

You know 2 weeks ago was our wedding anniversary. It was 5 years ago we finally said the I do’s we’d been planning on since June 7, 1996.

I miss you beyond words today. It’s just one of those days again. I don’t have them nearly as often as I used to. It has been almost 5 years and they were right, the pain lessens with time.

It was such a fun, impromptu kind of wedding. AWESOME fun. It would have been nice to have done it a long time ago tho. But, if wishes were horses….

It was all I could do to keep it together that day. I finally gave up and cried tears of joy. I was so happy to finally be your wife.

Some things have happened lately that make me miss you more than usual. I’ll get thru them. I always do.

I had to put Jegs down. Too many health things going on and I just felt it was time he came to be with you. The cyst on his throat was getting so hard and big. The lump on his thigh split open, all the lumps on his belly, suspected diabetes, hearing loss, eyesight going to hell. That last day I still struggled with the decision until he tried to get up. It took a while. And when I hugged him, he cringed. He never cringed. Even after that truck roll. That is when I knew I was doing the right thing. I’ll be bringing him up to you soon. I will sprinkle him over you so you two can be together again. You, Bear, Jegs, Emmy, Ansi….my loved ones.

My right hip is reminding how much fun I had playing on Play Day for 4-H. There are days I can hardly walk on it. Yet when I went for my walk at lunch today? It was fine. Now? I can hardly move. It makes no sense.

Thom has been staying in touch. I miss having him around but then again seeing him is another reminder of you. Like I need more.

I don’t know if it’s the anniversary thing, the Jegs thing, or what, but you have been heavy on my mind lately. And I like to be alone with those thoughts when it gets this much.

I’m actually enjoying being home alone with Stella and Louie. You wouldn’t like them….Too busy and Mr. Louie is my protector. Thinks he’s 10′ tall and bulletproof. God help a big dog that wants me to pet them. He might just shred their ankles. *sigh*

I read an article yesterday. The man lost his wife to TB after 2 1/2 years of marriage. But 488 days after she died, he wrote her the most beautiful love letter. His P.S. was “I didn’t know where to send this. I don’t have your new address.” I about lost it.

Know that I think about you a lot. I miss you so much and I will always love you.


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Ok NOW the loo is almost finished….lol

As of last night. I think I might like these curtains. The Burgundy one just didn’t work.

If you look close by the floor next to the new shower, you can see some sheet rock and about 2 or 3″ of the ceramic floor tile missing. This happened when they tore out the old tub. The old tub was bigger than the new shower base. This is all that is left to finish in this room. My son is learning how to mix colored concrete. That will go between the shower base and the tile. He’ll need to remove a row to make it even. Then just a couple scrap pieces of sheet rock to fix the wall (both sides…the other is hidden behind the shelves), the new towel hooks installed when they get here, and I can finally call this room DONE.

It’s very calming and enjoyable to spend time in this room now. I had NO idea how bad it had gotten till I started painting. And I’m lovin’ it.

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The saga that is my loo….


This color is so soft looking. Not sure of the color name but here’s the code to mix it. You just want to sink your hands into the walls … that’s how it looks.

I just have a bit of touch up top of walls to do tonight. And finish putting the room back together. Add a few plants and I’ll be done.

Well, I’LL be done. I have a couple things around the new shower to finish up yet. Sheet rock and some flooring.


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Well THAT’S fixed!!

I really liked this blueish color in the bedrooms I put it in. So I thought “these short walls in the bath would look good with a pop of color.”


Saturday Gary and I (yes, that Gary…hush) went to Rochester and I finally got the paint to finish the up the steps walls. And since you buy a gallon at $31.00 and a quart at $29.75, you buy the gallon and use the rest in another room. So I have the paint to finish my hall walls, and do my downstairs bathroom.

I had a helper. *sigh*

Somebody discovered a soft bed….

….and promptly fell asleep. LOL

Gary. Yes, he and I are talking and being friends again. Just friends. He and I make a good team getting things done. He has a bathroom to build and a bedroom to fix. I’m helping him.

I have some painting to do. He’s helping me. I can’t do ceilings because of my shoulder. He can.

We both want our homes done. He , because he plans on continuing to live there. Me, because I want it done, sold and me moved back to Minnesota.

I just realized I don’t have that much more to do. So it’s a push to get it finished now.

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…It was a nice 4 days off. The weather was SO nice. I wore sandals! Speaking of I just ordered a new pair of Birkenstock sandals this morning because Louie made a meal of my old pair. They were done anyway but still…..Little shit.

Lorenzo is a wonderful young man. We had a great time talking, going out to eat and seeing the sites around the area. Very relaxing time. Except I filled my gas tank 3 times. LOL!!

I miss him. We had such a great time. So easy to talk with. I hope I can make it work to get to Scotsdale for Graduation….

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