Thoughts of thoughts………….

I had me an AWESOME 4 day weekend!

Saw some fireworks, drank some alcohol, spent time with some awesome people.

But the best part?

I finally got a motorcycle ride where I told my guy friend who picked me up, that basically, as he was driving, he was tied up and I could do whatever I wanted to with him and he could not do a thing about it! (He agreed!) aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahha thud I know, I’m naughty. OK, maybe I’M not naughty but my thoughts…………………….look out!

Too bad I’m chicken huh? *sigh*

Tuesday I took the truck to the July 4th show.

We didn’t win anything. But it was fun sitting there seeing old friends.

Wednesday it’s back to work and I really do not want to be here. Can you imagine what I’ll be like after 10 days in Italy??

Thoughts of Nick came to me on Monday night. Strongly. And it just made me realize my heart is just not there to give yet. I thought about a couple guys wanting to spend time with me. And I felt empty. Instead of smiling thinking about it, I was just blank.

Me. Blank. Whodathunkit?

So I guess I have a lot more healing to do.

I just don’t want to LIKE being alone.