I do not think the death of my brother has really hit me yet. He had been a loner for a long time, only now coming back into the fold of my wonderful family. So going long periods of time without seeing him was the norm.
During the funeral , it about killed me to watch my dad kiss the urn before he put it in the grave. He has broken down several times. My mom? Not so much. I worry.
So now? How long will it be before it suddenly hits me he is gone?
Too many deaths for me to process lately.
Stop the world I want off.
I think he pinched me!